The depression seems to have lifted. Where before I was able to only do the bare essentials I can now return to normal routines. I was up before 6:30 this morning instead of laying in bed until nearly 8. I've started cleaning up my apartment, doing laundry and other essential chores - and I've started sleeping again at night. (That's a big one!)
What's made the difference? I been needing to participate in a mediated conversation with my husband. I was first approached about this back this fall and said I could n't until I had arranged regular counselling for myself. That took quite a bit longer than I had anticipated, however counselling finally began in January. That's when the depression hit. However, I finally said that I couldn't do it - not at this time anyway. That's when the depression started to lift.
So it seems to me that I'm not really dealing with depression but with fear. As I know from Romans 8:15, "For you did not receive a spirit that makes you a slave again to fear, but you received the Spirit of sonship." I know that I will have to deal with this - this is why I'm going to counselling, one baby step at a time.
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Good for you to go through the counseling, it can be so helpful and make situations look very different than they otherwise would. I will pray for you.
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